Uncertainty about the new!

Any time that I have done something new and different, I feel uncertain.  Every time I have had to make some changes, I feel uncertain.  These last several months have been filled with uncertainty.  I have had no choice except to get use to and move through uncertainty.

I know that there is nothing in my world that is certain.  Why, then, do I shy away from being in that state of mind and why do I hesitate about uncertain anything?

Is it possible to get excited and enthused about uncertainty?  Yes.  I just have to change my mind about what it is that I am feeling and thinking and get excited about it.  Experiencing a new restaurant is all about uncertainty. Yet, my feeling about that "new" is different from a feeling of a "new" career, "new" friend, "new" lifestyle.

A lot of this is confidence and trust - in myself.  Trust that life is always good.  Trust that the "new" can be as good as all the rest of the experiences I have in life.  Trust that uncertainty can be delightful and filled with good experiences.  Trust.

Sip. Savor. Repeat.

On the way to my office, there is a billboard sign that advertises an adult beverage with the words, "Sip. Savor. Repeat."

It got me to thinking that this is really the way life should be.  Recently, I caught myself thinking that I could hardly wait for the New Year.  Why am I wishing my life away?  I need to appreciate what is going on now and take advantage of all that is here for me.

Thinking about what has transpired this last year, I realize that life changes very quickly even when it seems like an eternity in the experience.  Sip, savor the eternity too.

Doing what's next.

Recently, two quotes have come to my attention:

1.  You owe it to all of us to get with what you're good at.  A. H. Auden

2.  Take care of yourself - you never know when the world will need you.  Rabbi Hillel

Okay, I got it.  I am amazing and it is time that I allowed my "amazingness" to show up in my world.  For a lot of years, I really tried to keep my light hidden under a bushel.  Is it bushel or bush?  My "childhood" mind remembers, "bushel."  Whatever it is, I am no longer going to keep from being "out there" in whatever form I need to take to be who I am.  Hiding no longer feels good.

Every year about this time, I begin to wonder, how close am I to what God intended me to be?  Since I was created in greatness, is that what I am experiencing?  What else needs to be done?

My pledge for the New Year is to get on with what I am good at, to explore new areas about myself, decide what new and different I want to experience, add some new people into my close circle of friends,  and to fill my life with love and joy.

Time for the new and different

This is the time when I usually start thinking about what I want to experience in the New Year.    Years past have been easy as I usually got great insights and ideas long before now.  This year, I have been stuck.  


Being stuck is a hard place to "wait" out or move through or be okay with it.  


One thing that it has brought out in me, is a greater trust in the Infinite that It knows what it is doing and that It has my back.  It has forced me into taking my thinking about my life to a deeper place and that it is time that I fully "aim out of the ballpark, as David  Ogilvy," tells me.  


So, while I feel stuck, I am going to live full out and see where it goes.