Changes, Ouch!

In all of my training, I have been told that change is a way of life.  However, when it comes to change in my life, it almost gives me the hibby jeebies. I am the first to admit, that when it comes to making change, I dig in my heels.  I don’t want it.  I don’t like it. And it usually brings surprises and I really don’t like surprises.  

It is hard for me to relate changes and surprises to something good.  It has never come natural for me.  I have to work at remembering that change always means something better and that surprises are delightfully wonderful.  

Going back into my lifetime, the stories that I have recorded have some element of surprise in them and I have had to rewrite the story in order to get what the “good” was in it.  Even in retrospect, it is sometimes hard to find the elements that have led me to my here and now even though I know that to be the truth of the matter.  What else but my experiences have brought me to my here and now?

Realizing that my story is unfinished, some of my memories are vague and sketchy.  One writer once told me that in writing out my story, I will get the first step in recognizing the holy mystery behind the life I have been given.  There are so many stories.  Do I really want to know the holy mystery of my life?  

Is finding out all of that paramount to what success or accomplishment or what I need to do necessary?  Sometimes when I read or hear stuff like that, I wonder what it is the people do - must not be very busy.  

What I do know is that I have to look for and sometimes pretend that I know the ending of the story of what is going on in my life.  That means that I have to discover and sometimes make up the good in the changes that are going on and how to see my life differently.  When I am in the midst of the “stuff” it is sometimes hard to see the “good” in any of it.

Just now, I felt a cold nose on my leg as I am sitting in front of my computer.  The cold nose is attached to Jackson, our youngest puppy, reminding me to “lighten up.”  Maybe it is time to think about the more important things in life like playing with Jackson.  

It all reminds me to accept, adjust, relax and let the story play out.  I don’t have to control all of it.  I can “just let it be.”  I have to learn how to change the rules as to what something things are.

Accept, adjust, relax and let the stories play out in your life.

The Story of Your Life

"You have to start telling a different story.  You have to start telling the story of your amazing life, because whatever story you tell, good or bad, the law of attraction must make sure you receive it, and it will be the story of your life."  Rhonda Byrne

Being actively engaged in life means creating a totally new story each day.  Since each of us is responsible for our own lives, we need to think about the greatest reality we can compose for ourselves.  

“All sorrows can be borne if  you tell a story about them.”  Karen Blixen

No matter what is going on in your life, there is something good to be found in your current situation.  Granted, sometimes, it needs to be searched out, but it is there.  Just be declaring that there is something good in a situation, allows the circumstances to change and the good shows up.  I am not sure how that takes place, whether its alchemy or something else, I know that it works.

Writing is the way I ground myself in my life and it helps me to see what is going on differently.  It is the way I make sense our of my life.  I am always looking for meaning and reasons why something happens.  Writing calms my mind and by writing, it slows down my flashing thoughts into something that is very manageable.  

Lately, one of my older sisters is going through some drama and the whole family is involved in the solving her situation.  I have to remember that this is “her” story and not mine.  It has nothing to do with me.  Yes, I am concerned, but I do not have to claim any of the stuff for myself.  

What I am doing is creating a new story around what I am hearing and how it affects my thinking about what is going on.  I can think about how I can handle it in the highest way possible for the good of all concerned.  Sometimes, it is not easy.

Create what you can to live an amazing life.  

Immediate Guidance

Your subconscious will give you promptings, ideas, answers and definite intuitive impressions based on the nature of our focused attention and intense interest.  Joseph Murphy

Recently, I have been decidedly lacking in inspiration.  Everything I have had to write has been a struggle, time wasted in light contemplation and not very productive.  I am out of practice in writing.

I kept telling myself that this was a project that was simple, fun and easy.  Yet, sitting in front of the computer with a black screen was all I could come up with.  

Deciding to be productive is just as daunting.  Then it means that not only do you write, but that writing should be brilliant.  I have not often written “brilliantly.”  

Then, I realized that I have not been using my God given talents in order to create what it is that I needed in order to be brilliant.  Somehow, I forgot to “go to my higher self” and request the information needed in order to write what was necessary.

It also struck me that I didn’t have that “intense interest” that Dr. Murphy write about above.  Great lessons in staying in the present time and developing the focused attention and intense interest.  Works all the time!

Divine Plan

You are not here merely to make a living.  You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope 

and achievement.  You are here to enrich the world 

and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand.

Woodrow Wilson

Have you noticed how much we have to remember, or learn, to pay attention to during a lifetime?  Every book has places in it that are inspirational, or moments to ponder, or solutions to put into action.  

I know that each of us has a particular talent that the world needs or we wouldn’t be here.  But I also know that most of us are multi-talented and can do many things and are able to teach many things.  Sorting them out takes us back to having too many choices in our lives.  Back to choosing what is the most fun, uses our passion, and is very satisfying and fulfilling.

Some of my talents are very latent.  For example, in speaking for a living, I also want to sing - high and low and in-between.  But when I do, my throat closes up, fills with phlegm, and I end up coughing.  Another example is that at times, I am a very good writer.  In fact, sometimes I discover that my writing is smarter than I am.  I never have enough time for hand crafts and always have several projects going at one time.  Jigsaw puzzles and Lego’s are my very favorite, but I haven’t been able to figure out how to make money putting pictures together or pilling plastic blocks into forms that resemble wonderful buildings.

Inside of me is a natural curiosity about metaphysics and even after studying and reading for over 35 years, there is still a fascination about my Divine Plan and how to manifest an expanded horizon for myself.  Most say that the Divine Plan is naturally revealed while relaxed and filled with inner peace.  And I know that when I am teaching, which is part of my Divine Plan - because it comes so easy, I feel that I am touching individuals with my talent which then gives them the impetus or encouragement to step into their own Divine Plan.  

More than that, I know that each of us attracts those people who can assist us down our path and we can also assist them journeying down their path.  I know…I know…there are some I don’t particularly like or I wonder what I need to learn from them.  But as my former husband said to me one day, “Cindy, you don’t have to marry them!”  Ah!  Okay!  All I have to do is pay attention and release them them into their highest and best.

The lesson here for me is to just relax and all will be revealed in due time.  I know there is more to my Divine Plan but for now, I can just enjoy the process and the journey.  I hope you do too.

Richest blessing in all you do.

Spring is Almost Here

Am ready to plan my next month’s theme, since I have gone back to work, and when looking at March 9, it is time to change our clocks again.  Six months has already gone by!  Then, too, March 1 is our one year anniversary of living in Oklahoma City.  This last year has gone by very quickly.  

In January’s resolutions, one of them for me, is to stay in the present for longer periods of time so as not to lose track of what’s important or what’s happened, or what is going on at the time.  I have a tendency to look back and wonder…”where has time gone?”  I don’t want to rush my life that much that I don’t remember.

Yesterday, the temperatures changed dramatically from being a high of 24 to a high of 46 degrees.  It felt so warm that I wanted to drag out a lounge chair to the patio and lay in the sun.  

So, am I ready for Spring?  You bet.  I am ready to be able to take walks around the neighborhood and enjoy nature again.  I have this tendency to “hunker” down in the winter and stay put.  All I want to do is snuggle in front of the fireplace in a comfortable chair with an afghan and good book.

The birds outside seem to be in perpetual motion.  What fun watching their antics in feeding, keeping warm, and just having fun.  

Recently, I was having some challenges in time, scheduling and making the changes to working, and I realized that I want this time to be simple, fun and easy.  I want my intentional experiences to be easy.  I am tired of hard and challenging.  

So, with a deep breath, relaxing out and realizing that “this too shall pass,” I know that my experiences with rest, relaxation, working and all else that comes up with living is a lot simpler than it has been in the past.  Realizing that I am too blessed to be stressed, I let go, release it all into the highest and best.  And so it is.

Waking Up Even More!

“Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the low- lands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment.”

John O'Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom

“Anything you do from the soulful self will help lighten the burdens of the world.  Anything.  You have no idea what the smallest word, the tiniest generosity can cause to be set in motion.  Be outrageous in forgiving.  Be dramatic in reconciling.  Be off the charts in kindness.  Mastery is in increments, not in leaps.  Be brave, be fierce, be visionary.  To live this way is the most dramatic gift you can ever give to the world.  Consider yourselves assigned.”  Clarissa Pinkola Estés

On this very cold February morning, the most notable thing is the birds outside.  They seem to be very active and vocal.  Some smaller species are especially noisy while chattering to all of the other birds flying around.  This may be the way they keep warm.  And winter or not, they have to eat, but what I can’t imagine.  

One of the things I have noticed living in Oklahoma is that the flying insects are huge.  I have taken to calling them “flying livestock.”  But in the winter, it seems that they have almost disappeared.  So, what are the birds eating at this time of the year?  I can only hope that they are cleaning up the insects that are left over from summer.

The two quotes above have captured my attention.  There are times when I really want to say, “Stop!  Let me off this dizzy machine!”  There are times when I really want to go back to innocent bliss and crazy - where I can blame everyone else for what is going wrong in my life.  That was so much easier.

Now, all I can do is introspection.  Sometimes even having to contemplate the introspection.  And really having to take a look at my pusillanimous behavior.  It is not always easy nor is it fun to see some of my other character defects.

Once I build up my courage to see what is really there, there always seems to be the solution right next to it.  I love how this opens up new avenues of being and it always seems to be huge steps forward in consciousness.

It seems to me that the birds are always fierce, brave and visionary.  They go in spite of the seeming pitfalls.  And in all kinds of weather!  Oh, to be more like them in spirit!